To A Baby Who Was Never Born...

A life inside me, a love so strong.She died inside me, but the love lives on.It broke my heart for her to go.I love her, I need her like she'll never know.I never held her, or heard her cry,And I wasn't ready to say goodbye.I never dressed her in tiny clothes,Or saw her smile as I tickled her toes.I cry for her in the night.It hurts so much, and no one can make it right.

For those that dont it yet i miscarried at 4 months
when i went to find out the sex of the baby her
heart wasnt beating . . . still dealing with it but
i'll be okay it;'s something i have to go through by
myself as usual smh it;s crazii i was really looking
forward to being a mom.but i will one of these days,
it just wasnt in god's plan and i dont really understand
why but maybe i will one day until than Rhian Winter
will always be apart of me no matter what ;)

ERM. so I couldnt be doing better :) i've been hanging out with my boyfriend like craziii and eatin my life away as you guys can see lol baby has been kiicking my ass but it's all worth it i will find out the sex in a week ahhhhhhhh arent yall excited??? hehe it has to be a gurl! because i already picked the name out :) hehe

RHIAN WINTER ________.

MY FUTURE EVERYTHING;

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Pictures of the little B E L L Y.

3 Months. . .

Cant wait until the 4Th month when i get to find out the sex of my baby ;) ...erm Ono you didn't know i was pregnant? lol smh than i really don't like you.It sucks going to the doctor's office alone i swear i drown in my own thoughts just sitting there and listening to the doctor or even watching the woman there with there babies father's yoooo who would have thought shit would have thought me of all people would be going through this shit smh and it isn't nothing but drama on top of drama like non-stop odee bullshit that i don't deserve. . . me or my baby for that matter but you know what it is what it is. i have too many people in my corner my friends are wonderful and i couldn't ask for better support, my baby is loved unconditionally already and wont have to want or need for anything and when it comes down to it thats all that matters.

So I'm going to scan the ultrasound flicks this week even though you cant really see anything, I'll do that monthly to keep you doo doo's updated.

INTRO.

Soul Mission ? From my struggles,heartbreaks,good times and bad times i'm basically finding out new things about myself. Surrounding and Conversing with people that i love and that add joy to my life. . . Welcoming new people into this chaper of my life and knowing that everyone wont make it to the next. I'll try to post video blogs with poems or of whatever i must get off my chest at the moment weekly, but i wont make any promises i must say i'm a very busy woman (lmao not really just semi-lazy). SOOOOOO to make this short i'll post whatever when whenever. get it? got it? GOOD!